My sister and I are three years apart. When I asked my mom how I reacted upon having another human being in the household, she said at first I was apathetic about the whole thing. Later on, I developed feelings of jealousy. I mean, I've been the only child for three years then suddenly, this other person comes along and gets my mom's attention. Except that she's not just 'some other person,' she's my sister.
I don't know why I'm writing about this but since I've already started this, might as well...
Pre-school years:
She fell off her crib because of me.
I would go with her to her classes otherwise she wouldn't attend them.
I pushed her one time because she 'stole' (according to my 5 year old self) my ball and her nose collided with the sharp edge of our side table.
Elementary years:
She got bullied a lot.
She proudly said to our parents that I used to defend her. I wish I could've agreed that I did that for her sake and not for my the 'good person' reputation I was maintaining.
We argued a lot about out computer schedules (because we had one computer then).
I cried and complained once because she was getting all the attention although I was getting all the good grades.
Present:
I borrowed a bobby pin from her once and she accidentally gave me the one with the sharp edge. She took it back and gave me a new one. I definitely would have given her the sharp edged one.
Okay, I get it. I've been such an inconsiderate sister, or person in general.
I don't remember saying 'I love you' to her in so long.
I genuinely love my sister, it's just SO difficult to express it. It's not even about getting my parents' attention (that is so 10 years ago). I just hate appearing excessively sentimental and sweet.
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